ADULTING
It sucks to become an adult! Can I ask God to become a kid forever?
Becoming adult is suck.
I need to work to be able to eat my favorite cheesecake and a cup of overprice coffee at trendy cafes in the town.
I have to pretend that I like the job that I’m having now,
So that I can keep my seat at the office for myself under my watch.
I am that employee who is working at the office that I’ve never imagined to work at in the first place.
Becoming adult is suck.
I need to socialize with people older than me and pretend to agree with their ideas to avoid unnecessary drama.
I have to pretend that I’m happy most of the time,
So that I shouldn’t explain things that I want to keep in myself, privately.
I am that employee who is pretending to be okay all the time,
But mostly got overthinking and anxiety attack at nights.
Becoming adult is suck.
I thought weekends will be enough to suck up my social battery.
I know that I need to recharge my social battery, all day on weekends.
But… guess what?
I have to go to social events to fulfill society’s expectations.
Coming to my colleagues or childhood friends or schoolmates weddings are my weekend routines.
Fulfilling birthdays, anniversaries, and any other celebrations are also my monthly routines.
Becoming adult is suck.
I have to pretend that I know of what I’m doing now,
Even though I don’t know what I’m doing, most of the time!
But, who cares? I’m doing it anyway.
Most of the time, what I’m dreaming of won’t become reality.
At least for now.. and again.. it sucks!
But life still goes on, so I’m living a life that I’ve never planned nor imagined before.
Becoming adult is suck.
I know, it’s a fact and most of you must agree, right?
It’s okay to be angry, sad, disappointed, and depressed.
But at some points, I have to accept various life challenges thrown by God to me.
All ups and downs, I have to be ready. All the time.
Although most of the time being an adult is suck,
But at least I’m a bit glad that even though I’m stressed out,
I am able to make money on my own and have a God;
Therefore, as long as I’ve them, I think I’m gonna be okay.
O.O — 22 Dec 2024
